As a tear rolls down my cheek...

I'm so tired. I don't know if it's age, or stress, or what have you...but I'm tired. And I'm tired of letting old feelings control what I feel today. At this moment, at this very moment. I fear...not the rest of my life. Not how strongly I love, but I fear. I fear that the things that consumed me in the past will some how interfere with my happiness now. It chokes me, it makes me feel sick, and it exhausts me sometimes. I don't want to fear anymore. But I'm not sure on how to get it to release me...