A New year...

It's January 1, 2009. I am writing today feeling like this is the year I will be reborn. A new year...a fresh start...a completely blank slate. This is the year for change I had always wanted when celebrating New Years'. My divorce will become final. This is something that had been on my mind for a long time until I decided to do something about it; and seemed as though I would be forever standing still while anything and everything would pass me by. You might ask me if I'm sad...and no, actually I've very much happy in my decision. It's not that I didn't want to be married or start a family. I just knew in my heart that this was not the person for me. And that took a long time to realize...I just hope that this person realizes this was the best thing for us both.
Towards the end of 2008, I found someone. Someone who I had known, someone who surprised me, and someone who I will share the things I know that I want to accomplish and grow into. This person is everything I could ask for. Understanding, and loving , and compassionate, and beautiful inside and out. This person makes me want to strive for greatness, not only for them but for me. They are my biggest support and I am their biggest fan. It's amazing to me that you can search so long for everything you want in a partner, but when you decide that it's ok to be alone; they find you. Strike that...you find each other. I'd always believed that there could be one person out there to understand you, to believe in you, to see you how you see yourself; but until you find that person, that with one look into their eyes you see all things are possible...you will not understand what I mean. I don't care if people think I'm crazy but I without question have found my equal to be able to hold hands with and walk into the sunset. And all it took was for me to realize that, was the epiphany that I didn't need to be loved for the rest of my life. And without missing a beat, love came and found me.
So it's a new year. Full of new beginings, new endings, new goals, new dreams, and new wishes. I will promise myself to embrace all things this year, the good and the bad, the known and the unknown. I cannot wait for the year to unfold and take things day by day. This truly is the first year of the rest of my life.