My head is swimming...

Did you ever just feel that your life won't begin unless you shake it up a bit? I'm stuck between I don't know where I'm going and I know right where I am. There so much I want to do and see and accomplish and it feels as though the only way for me to do these things is to detinate this time bomb that has been ticking in my mind and beneath my chest. I just want to scream and dance and run and fall into a giant pile of fall leaves. I want to cry and laugh and feel as though my eyes are opening for the first time. I've been lost for a long time...but I'm fighting my way back slowly and surely, and no one....I repeat no one is going to tell me that I can't be me anymore.